2015/4/22-Five months after a Cleveland police officer shot and killed Tamir Rice, 12, his family and friends are still struggling to make sense of their loss. This video captures an intimate portrait of the lives upended by Tamir’s death.

Samaria Rice, Tamir’s mother, reflects on her experience with guns, and for the first time, Tamir’s friend Devin Mims, 16, talks openly about the toy gun he gave to Tamir the day of the shooting, explaining that he removed its orange safety tip because it was broken.

The Cuyahoga County sheriff’s office continues to investigate the shooting, and a grand jury is unlikely to convene until the inquiry is complete.